Yet another negative stream of thought woke me up at this time of hour. I feel lost and defeated because I lost another friend.. a friend who chose to keep her distance. I feel of losing myself again.
What makes me defeated is not that though… I haven’t found my strength back and all I can do is cry as I hear the sound of my breath and their breath.
I still cannot find a way to forgive myself. I push myself to this dark loneliness. I made myself feel all this hurt, no one else but myself.
Where are you, light?